1 year

today marks 1 year since i left uni and joined the workforce. 1 year in the blue coverall. 1 year with schlumberger.

the photo taken above has nothing to do with this post. but probably has something to do with what i'm feeling right about now. go figure.

x marks the spot...

i typed a really long post about something i read the other day through an online tutorial. something about setting a lifetime goal and basically breaking it down to pieces and turning them into short term goals that is easier to visualize. then i went about the usual "what's my goal?" road and started complaining about not having anything solid enough for me to grasp. then i stopped.

i think it is about time i stopped thinking about what is ahead of me. stop fearing where my next step is gonna take me to. just stop and start living. i've always had the "what if?" question lingering in my mind and that has made me cautious of every move i make. i've come to realize that life is not a game of chess. it's ok to be random and to take risks and to throw caution to the wind and to be free once in a while.

actually i have no idea at all what this post is about... =)

my mind and heart is in a million places thinking about a million things right now. but one thing for sure - i miss the sight of these towers at night...

picture taken with sony t200 last year during cl's birthday...

24/07/04

nothing much to blog about really but i just felt i need to for the sake of my blog...

it's been 4 years since i started writing here and i still can't believe i've managed to sustain this blog for so long. there were times in the past when i almost gave up on this blog (due to laziness, nothing more... hehehe...) but still somehow, it kept going on.

i remember starting this blog when it's really just a blog. when bloggers remain low profile and no one really cared too much about what is written here. now, you've got celebrity bloggers, political bloggers, bloggers bringing each other to court... it's a mess really. i'm no celebrity blogger and the traffic on my blog reaches a max of 50 per day (once upon a time) and i guess half of it comes from me checking my own blog and my frens.

but all in all, this blog does serve it's purpose which is a space for me to vent out my feelings unchecked (well, not really 100% unchecked but it's good enough...) and more than that, it's my personal space for me to keep track of the changes that i've been through and stuff. i read back the older posts and find myself amazed at how much i've changed. it's obvious even from the way i'm writing.

anyway, that was 4 years back when i was still in uni worrying about my grades. now...

picture taken by cl when she was here for the past few days with my new bought nikon d60... =)

i've really got no words to describe where i am right now in terms of... well... everything. but then again, life goes on and we shall see where life takes me next yeah?

to quote neo from matrix (not the exact quote but close enough) - i don't believe in fate. i don't like the idea of me not having control over my own life.

but i do believe in destiny. our path has been carved ahead of us. god has everything in place but it's up to us to realize our role and to accept our path.

to quote morpheus from matrix - all i can do is show you the door. you are the one who has to walk through it.

haha... dun ask me why the sudden matrix mania. no idea why all these lines are stuck in my head...

ok. i'm getting sidetracked here. anyway, i'll just end the post here and get back to work. =)

happy anniversary unfinished_article!

down memory lane

in reply to cl's comments, i can't find the most recent photo of the 6 of us but this is the oldest that i have. this goes back 8 years to the much hyped year 2000. this was taken the night before we conquered (hiked sounds more appropriate) mount kinabalu.

guys, if anyone of you have any recent photo of us, can you please forward it to me? i'd like to post it here. it'll be cool to see how each one of us has changed... =)

jason: the photoshop idea is not too bad, but lets keep that for a last resort yeah?

quick update...

i've got less than 30 mins to do this, so it'll be have to be short. right now, i'm posted in labuan and i'm not entirely sure for how long. but career-wise at least it looks good. there are a few jobs coming up and i'm hoping to get some offshore job exposure. it's gonna be a brand new experience for me to be working offshore - not sure if it's exciting or scary yet...

personally, i've been in a mind war of some sort with myself. my closest friends knows all about it. but it's something that i definitely have to deal with but not here. for now, it'll stay private and confidential. =P

and talking about my closest friends, remember my brothers from high school? jason, jacky, ang, zi hui and kam? well, the wedding bells are ringing for 2 of them! amazing huh? it still felt like just yesterday we were fooling around in school being the carefree (but totally cool) kids we were and now, 2 of them are actually officially becoming men... hehehe...

i'm not gonna disclose which one of them are getting married coz i'm not so sure if they want the news to be spreading yet. but if you know us well enough, it should be easy to guess looking at our current situation... =)

i didn't know if i should post it here, but it's such great news, i couldn't help it... =P

ok, my time is up. gotta go.

oh yeah, i'm living in an extremely huge house now, but i'm all alone. it's not nice. =(

ps: it's officially 3 months since i last saw cl... =(